The pain continues but now we know why

The pain continues. The MRI is inconclusive and I return to Kaiser for additional images using a dye for a contrast medium. My rheumatoloigist is on vacation so the images are sent to my primary care physician, who I've had as my doctor for 15 years. A good guy. After reviewing the images he orders a cat scan. With him, things move at Kaiser. He called me in the morning and a cat scan was set up that afternoon. As with the MRI, the cat Scan was painfull.
The next morning I get a call from my doctor. According to the cat scan, I have a fracture in my right hip that appears to be trying to heal itself. He refers me to an orthopedist, who I will see next Monday and orders a walker for me. Everyone wants to know if I fell, which I did not, and how I could have gotten the fracture. I haven't got a clue. The only thing I can think of is that the high doses of steroids masked something that happened as I was woirking with my physical therapist.
I see my oncologist also this week. All treatments for CMML are put on hold till the fracture issue is resolved. My blood values continue to remain stable and constant, but Dr K will do another bone marrow biopsy soon to see if the disease has progressed. The current plan is to treat me with Dacogen UNLESS my values are still stable and the bone marrow biopsy shows no progression of the disease. I contineue to add more of my herbs to my daily pill collection. While my platelet count is still low, it is steady and above any real`danger point.
Throughout this ordeal, Arlene has been my real strength. There have been several times I've thought of ending it all if the rest of my life would be nothing but pain. She has been there for me, comforting me when I needed it, encouraging me when I needed it, making me laugh when that would help. When going from the car to the doctors, she wants to do wheelies in the parking lot with me in my wheelchair. how many points will I get if I crash into this person with a walker.
My goal now is to deal with the fracture, get rid of the pain, get out of the wheelchair, and live the rest of my life as normally as possible. I will no longer take things for granted and accept the fact that I AM VULNERABLE, and it can happen to me.